This is you, about one month old, trying to get used to things, like the pacifier; i did try to give it t you but you didn't like it. You kept on pushing it outwards, well it was nice to not have it as your habit anyway.
And yes that mee.... lol, with my swollen body. At this time, we are like buddies to the bed. We spent most of the time on bed, besides sunbathing, morning bath, afternoon bath, getting post natal massage (still a laying down activity) and walking in front of the house. I just kept nursing you.